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(no subject) [Mar. 15th, 2005|01:52 am]
Cliff Harvey
[mood |indescribableeverything]
[music |Circa Survive]

I wish I could listen to this one song, "Suspending Disbelief" by Circa Survive forever. That would allow me to preserve my state of semi-peace with myself. I'm going to go to bed and hope that this music continues to ring out in my head until I fall asleep.

Things are changing wicked fast. I wish I could just enjoy where I am without worrying about what's ahead of me. I feel so much like I'm just being swept along.

I think I need to learn to do a better job managing all my thoughts and feelings. Anyway Starting now, I'm meditating for at least 20 minutes per day. Writing in my log, and on here has helped a lot as well.

Oh yeah so my new classes start tomorrow in about 6 hours, so nighty night. Heres the rundown:

MA2051 - Ordinary Differential Equations
MA1024 - Calculus IV
PH1140 - Oscillations, Waves and Optics
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(no subject) [Mar. 13th, 2005|02:24 am]
Cliff Harvey
[mood |amusedgud yo]
[music |Circa Survive - The Great Golden Baby]

Today was a weird evening, I ended up going to these two weird/stupid parties with Lisa and other friends and other people from my school. There were so many people I didn't know, and so many people falling over drunk or stoned or who knows what. Basically it was the kind of thing that would irritate my except, 1) I was reunited with a close friend which felt really damn good and was important, and 2) as I was putting up with all the nonsense this evening, my head was in the clouds for most of the time. In a whole other state in fact.

So consequently I was in a pretty cool state of mind this evening, and still am. I feel damn good actually.

I canNOT wait to return on monday.

I hate this state. Some of the people in it, though, are another story.

In other news, check out the music I'm listening to here. And let me just say that CIRCA SURVIVE rocks my world more than any other artist I've discovered in the last 12 months. And thats a LOT of bands. Their EP completely blows me away.
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Weird complicated game thing [Mar. 8th, 2005|08:29 pm]
Cliff Harvey
[mood |flirtybetter]
[music |Saosin - Bury your head]

1 - leave a comment, saying you want to be interviewed.
2 - I will respond; i'll ask you five questions.
3 - you'll update your journal with my five questions, and your five answers.
4 - you'll include this explanation.
5 - you'll ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed.

[interviewed by xbrokemywingsx]

1. If you had to live the life of any character from a book, who would it be and why? - Thats a tricky one, I think I'm glad I'm not any of the people I've read about in books. I guess if I had to pick one it would probably be Richard Feyman because he made a lot of important contributions, met lots of cool people, basically had a kickass life it seems like. If you mean fictitious characters, I think I'd choose Jonathan Livingston Seagull, which you can really only understand if you've read that book. (if you havent you definitely should because its amazing)

2. Who have you lost touch with that you'd like to get back in touch with? Why? A wholllllle bunch of my friends down in CT. I could list for hours. Also a bunch of people I've known really well online but never gotten the chance to meet.

3. You can meet anyone in the world. Who do you meet and why? What would you do? - In all honesty, Albert Einstein. I feel weird saying that because nowadays hes not even thought of as a scientist anymore, hes just this huge icon, this symbol. But honestly what that guy did with his head is the most ridiculous, incredible shit ever. I'd probably want to go eat a meal and then play chess and talk about math and physics and stuff. After that I'd want to jam with me on guitar and him on his violin...hell yeah.

Oh and also....one person Id REALLY love to be able to meet is my grandfather, because he died when I was 8. And even though I loved him, I've learned so much about him since then and hes one of the people I respect the most in the world, and I'd love to be able to talk with him as an adult.

4. If you had to follow strictly one type of philosophy for the rest of your life, what would that be?

Probably Buddhism. I dont agree with every aspect of it (like the reincarnation stuff), but in terms of philosophy I think Buddhism is very much right for me.

5. If you could have any skill (not supernatural) that you don't have now, what would it be?

I want to get much better at composing music. Im making babysteps, but whenever I finish a piece of music or art or whatever it gives me such enormous satisfaction.
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But at least this album arouses me sexually [Mar. 8th, 2005|01:26 pm]
Cliff Harvey
[mood |fullwow cool!]

Okay so I guess it turns out that this vacation, which isn't really a vacation, I'll be able to see my friends for a total of 0.1 micromilinanoseconds.

School is my escape from vacation rather than the other way around, what the fuck?
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Back to reality, for a little while at least [Mar. 8th, 2005|02:46 am]
Cliff Harvey
[mood |hypermixed]
[music |Deftones - RX Queen]

I drove home tonight with my uncle. I listened to music and sat in a surreal daze, letting myself be mesmerized by the lights going by the car and the complexity of the world moving by on the other side of the glass.

Somehow my uncle and I always get into these immensely deep conversations about reality, physics, and the nature of human existence and human perception. I experienced a number of weird, fragmented thoughts and ideas, too numerous and vague to begin to record or remember, but were still amazing to me.

My thoughts these days are mostly too disorganized or too personal for this journal, so all my pages and pages of directionless rambling gets funneled into my private log.

Goodnight, ladies.
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(no subject) [Mar. 6th, 2005|04:43 pm]
Cliff Harvey
[mood |deviouslookin forward]
[music |Explosions in the Sky - First Breath After Coma]

Last night I read through all my past livejournal entries from when I got this thing started in the summer of 03. I've been made aware of, or reminded of, a few things as a result:

• My senior year in High School was one of the best in my life. (reverse-office space dissorder) I'm really glad I have some sort of record of this.

• Judging by my LJ entries at least, apparently I was way more funny and interesting than I am now. lol.

• I'm really really unhappy about the extent to which Ive lost connection with most of the people I care about south of the border. I'm coming home to Connecticut in a couple days and I need to share some real quality time ASAP.

• I was aware of this already, of course, but I am seriously the luckiest son of a bitch evarrr. I have every reason to be thankful.

So here is the one-word expression of my thankfulness that my life is the way it is:

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(no subject) [Mar. 5th, 2005|02:14 am]
Cliff Harvey
[mood |dorkyLOL]

Why I am the most kickass boyfriend ever

NOTE: All music must be turned off before entering!
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(no subject) [Mar. 4th, 2005|09:15 pm]
Cliff Harvey
[mood |chipperchipper]
[music |Mae - The Everglow (raddest album evarrr)]

If you read this, please respond...

What's going on in your life?

What are you thinking, and feeling?


Tell me anything or everything...

Hell, write me a short poem, if you so desire.

I'm too out of touch with many of you...
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(no subject) [Mar. 1st, 2005|02:29 am]
Cliff Harvey
[music |Mae - We're so far away]

Then again, in time my thoughts always return to the absolutes.
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(no subject) [Mar. 1st, 2005|12:09 am]
Cliff Harvey
I feel increasingly unable to decipher, sift through or disentangle what goes on in my head.

It would feel extraordinarily helpful and good to meditate again, or something along those lines; it's been way too long. I spent a few minutes this evening laying on my bed in the dark and watching the snow swirl below the lights outside my window, which has to be the next best thing. I definitely need to set aside a few minutes like that more often to sort through my thoughts.

I tried to describe what Im thinking/feeling in this text box several times, but its clearly useless. All I know is that I dont know, and that the only music I can stand listening to is this song:


This is weird, suddenly the need to meditate feels as concrete and as unavoidable as the need to sleep or eat.

This last week of school will be as insane as ever, and after that will come a much needed respite, full of sleep, running, reading, meditation and hopefully creative progress.

As long as there's always progress...
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